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  • Deepest regrets

    I must say sorry to forum members and mods and trainers for my recent outburst.

    Im truly sorry, everyday lifes stress is the only reasoning i can offer in my defence.

    And I should not take my anger out on the forum.

    Im sorry, I really need to win, and want to win bad.

    My lifes circumstances are not that great. Employment is hard to find.

    I understand if nobody replies to any of my posts in the future, and sorry for disrespecting people who were only trying to help.

    I rightly so had an infraction.

    SORRY

  • #2
    Forgiveness comes easy. Reform takes work. Others give the first and you do the other.







    As to poker, real life has a way of influencing your play. If your mind is focused on other things, the game can get away from you. What one thinks as brilliant play is naught but the end product of an imaginative mind.

    If you have read my posts regarding my 100-orbit self challenge, you'll know things can, and do, go south. Check out how many times I break away from the virtual felt to chill. I too have tilt problems, but I know the onset and act accordingly. Take the hint.

    Winning is a goal. Perhaps the problem is defining what constitutes a win. Let me explain.

    I considered my goal to finish every orbit over the 425 point mark. Achievable - yes. Realistic - no. If I focused on the unrealistic, I became frustrated and it affected my game. It also affected my mood. It (censored) me off each time the cards behaved in the "wrong" manner.

    The solution was an achievable goal. I seek profit each orbit by passing the 176 point level. The higher I go, the happier I became. Whenever I passed that score, I relaxed. I took gambles. If they worked, I cheered, but any setback didn't become a life or death event. I could even laugh at the stupid hedgehog's play.

    I don't know what your playing goal is. Perhaps it is too unrealistic. Let me give you a lesson I learned as a table game dealer at a casino.

    A professional gambler asked six people how much a pro gambler expects to earn whenever he gambles. He wanted a percentage. The five people guessed anywhere from 100% to 500%. All were wrong. A pro works for 10%. He knows any game of chance has a luck element and he doesn't push it.

    Best advice he gave. Set a firm time limit to check your bankroll. If you have your original stake plus 10%, pocket that and have fun with the rest. However, when its lost, run to the cashier. Do not continue to play.

    Too many visiting my table ignored that advice and the casino's lights remained on.

    Players here tell me poker is different. You should play with the expectation of doubling. I was never that bold. I stayed with that pro's advice. I didn't profit every session, but I limited losses and ran when the tide changed. Over the long run, I came out a winner. Others laughed at my gains, but I'm willing to bet every losing player would love to trade records.

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    • #3
      Thank you Cairn, and I agree somewhere a long the way I have lost my goals and expectations have ran far to high to the expected reality of things.

      11/27/2012 $0.25 NL Hold'em [45 Players] Hold'em NL $0.23 + $0.02 $10.35 4 / 45 $1.29
      11/27/2012 $0.25 NL Hold'em [45 Players] Hold'em NL $0.23 + $0.02 $10.35 2 / 45 $2.22
      11/27/2012 $0.25 NL Hold'em [45 Players] Hold'em NL $0.23 + $0.02 $10.35 1 / 45 $3.23
      11/27/2012 $0.25 NL Hold'em [45 Players] Hold'em NL $0.23 + $0.02 $10.35 9 / 45 $0.00
      11/26/2012 $0.25 NL Hold'em [45 Players] Hold'em NL $0.23 + $0.02 $10.35 3 / 45 $1.70
      11/26/2012 $0.25 NL Hold'em [45 Players] Hold'em NL $0.23 + $0.02 $10.35 16 / 45 $0.00
      11/26/2012 $0.25 NL Hold'em [45 Players] Hold'em NL $0.23 + $0.02 $10.35 14 / 45 $0.00
      11/26/2012 $0.25 NL Hold'em [45 Players] Hold'em NL $0.23 + $0.02 $10.35 1 / 45 $3.23
      11/26/2012 $1.00 NL Hold'em [45 Players] Hold'em NL $0.91 + $0.09 $40.95 8 / 45 $0.00
      11/26/2012 $1.10 NLHE [6-Max, Turbo, $2.5K Gtd] Hold'em NL $1.00 + $0.10 $3,429.00 1311 / 3429 $0.00
      11/26/2012 $0.25 NL Hold'em [45 Players] Hold'em NL $0.23 + $0.02 $10.35 35 / 45 $0.00
      11/26/2012 $0.50 NL Hold'em [45 Players, Turbo] Hold'em NL $0.45 + $0.05 $20.25 27 / 45 $0.00
      11/26/2012 $0.25 NL Hold'em [45 Players] Hold'em NL $0.23 + $0.02 $10.35 28 / 45 $0.00
      11/25/2012 $0.25 NL Hold'em [45 Players] Hold'em NL $0.23 + $0.02 $10.35 28 / 45 $0.00
      11/25/2012 $0.25 NL Hold'em [45 Players] Hold'em NL $0.23 + $0.02 $10.35 25 / 45 $0.00
      11/25/2012 $0.25 NL Hold'em [45 Players] Hold'em NL $0.23 + $0.02 $10.35 2 / 45 $2.22
      11/25/2012 $0.25 NL Hold'em [45 Players] Hold'em NL $0.23 + $0.02 $10.35 2 / 45 $2.22
      11/23/2012 $0.25 NL Hold'em [45 Players] Hold'em NL $0.23 + $0.02 $10.35 21 / 45 $0.00
      11/23/2012 $0.25 NL Hold'em [45 Players] Hold'em NL $0.23 + $0.02 $10.35 11 / 45 $0.00

      These are my last results of play since my infraction, I have done my own thing, which is in fact grinding out results, happy with min itm as long as I can get there.

      So looking at these results, are they in the normal, should i be more than happy with these results?

      Yes people may laugh as its only a few cent buyins, but i see my BR climbing, is this what i should concentrate on?

      I think you are correct, and my expectations compared to reality have been far to off track.

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      • #4
        Seven cashes in the 45-player SNG games of 18 played. I would be very pleased with that record. Moxie would be the one to ask if that's a good result as the 45-player game is his favorite.

        A slow grind is not glamorous. Let's admit it, we all want to be the person who plays in the 10,000 player game and makes final table. To me, that would be the definition of foolish. I prefer the slow grind.

        The grind system does have its advantages. You become familiar with the game and learn ways of extending your runs by continual exposure. You can also see where you screwed up and try finding out why. No, I'm not being insulting. I blow it too.

        Just a suggestion, for what it's worth. I noticed four early outs in your list. (say 20th or worse) Look at those games and see what you did wrong. Don't tell me it was bad cards. That might have you lose via blinding, which is rare. See if you are pushing bad hands or bad positions. Learn and apply to the next game. Poker is an ongoing experience.

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        • #5
          Thanks Cairn, I think the ones I early exited in were just ordinary beats or me been a bit to aggressive trying to get an early stack. And thanks for the great sound advice, yes grinding for sure wins in the long run. And im not sure if Moxie will speak to me to be honest, I was horrible to him, or her? nether thought about that one that Moxie may be a women. Will have to look at profle. Thanks for looking at my results if you would be happy with them results then so am I. umbup:

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          • #6
            Originally posted by holdemace486 View Post
            Thanks Cairn, I think the ones I early exited in were just ordinary beats or me been a bit to aggressive trying to get an early stack. And thanks for the great sound advice, yes grinding for sure wins in the long run. And im not sure if Moxie will speak to me to be honest, I was horrible to him, or her? nether thought about that one that Moxie may be a women. Will have to look at profle. Thanks for looking at my results if you would be happy with them results then so am I. umbup:
            ROFLMFAO!!! A bearded woman indeed!!! evil:
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            • #7
              Originally posted by holdemace486 View Post
              And im not sure if Moxie will speak to me to be honest, I was horrible to him, or her? nether thought about that one that Moxie may be a women.

              Will have to look at profle.


              Strange you say that. Never thought to ask. I always figure it's a guy unless they say otherwise or it is so obvious by the handle. You're suppose to be a poker player who always plays with the odds in your favor. I can remember reading somewhere that most online poker players are male. (GRIN)

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              • #8
                Originally posted by holdemace486 View Post
                Im sorry, I really need to win, and want to win bad.
                Wanting to win is required. Needing to win leads one to take unreasonable chances, that is make -EV plays and bad decisions.

                Winning at poker should not have a life or death urgency, after all its only a game.

                Good decisions.

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                • #9
                  I for one would never laugh even if it is a few cents..i would rather start very low and build up rather than start high and lose and have to redeposit

                  If your Bankroll is growing (and its not due to pure luck of course) then that is a very very good thing

                  Even if you ar e losing but learning an d improving then I feel it is still a good thing

                  I go against some advice given in books which says you should learn a few different types of games...I would stick to the one you like and once you can do well at it rinse and repeat ..

                  Good luck

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                  • #10
                    Originally posted by holdemace486 View Post
                    Thanks Cairn, I think the ones I early exited in were just ordinary beats or me been a bit to aggressive trying to get an early stack. And thanks for the great sound advice, yes grinding for sure wins in the long run. And im not sure if Moxie will speak to me to be honest, I was horrible to him, or her? nether thought about that one that Moxie may be a women. Will have to look at profle. Thanks for looking at my results if you would be happy with them results then so am I. umbup:
                    Originally posted by joker41673 View Post
                    ROFLMFAO!!! A bearded woman indeed!!! evil:
                    No,no. I haven't rocked the "goat-face" for years (gawd,probably not since I was a roofer and that seems like a lifetime ago...). Not the first time I've had to explain this,as many may remember, It's the handle,I guess Moxie sounds effeminate to some,I never understood that,but it's all good. Moxie---1. energy,pep 2. courage,determination 3. skill,know how Pip---amongst other definitions a "pip" is also the dots on dice...and I used to have a weakness for the craps tables (and used to lose badly as well but had fun...). Now those are the second half of what led me to use Moxie Pip as my handle,the first and most important reason is that Moxie (full bred Husky---male and Pip(in) (bay retriever---female) are my two dogs. I kind of like that it has a duality of meanings for me. And you can bet your ass that when I've seen an advantage to some sap thinking A--that I'm a chick and B---that the ladies are weak and to be preyed on at the tables...I've used that to my best ability to exploit it.

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                    • #11
                      Originally posted by TrumpinJoe View Post
                      Wanting to win is required. Needing to win leads one to take unreasonable chances, that is make -EV plays and bad decisions.

                      Winning at poker should not have a life or death urgency, after all its only a game.

                      Good decisions.
                      So true, and yes pressure can cause a knock on effect on ones game.

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                      • #12
                        Thank you Rolo yes i should stick to what works.

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                        • #13
                          And I now know moxies a guy ,even though if he was in the UK I would still worry about him been a women even with a goaty lol.

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