After a terrible start to the league this month (99% bad beats), I've managed to work my way back into giving me some hope of staying in the league for October.



I have my work "cut out" for me though, and trying to stay positive is extremely difficult.

Non-poker issues have been the cause for my current mindset and even my latest league result didn't give me that "reward" feeling I am used to..........due to life's "curveballs".

I haven't been blogging, posting in forums or even playing due to these "external punches".

My small bankroll has doubled, which should be a great motivational "bullet",  but the worry of being knocked out of the league has overshadowed that "achievement" and this is why I'm typing this right now.

Just thinking out loud, the last league game I played I actually did well, but honestly was emotionless while playing, in fact I was in a very negative mindset for the duration.

That result has given me a very achievable chance of making the top 800, but my mindset is being put to the test like never before.

So I'm forcing myself to make my feelings public, because by sharing my experiences has helped my game like nothing else has in the past, so I'm going to stick to this "tactic".

I'm not going to give up, I'm also not going to beat myself up if I don't make it.

But if I don't play, I won't make it.

I want that "hunger" back, I need inspiration and I'm hoping that this post is my first step to getting it back.

My September results are listed below to give you the whole picture. Sorry for the layout of the results and hope it makes sense.

Thanks PSO for being there - I have no idea what I would do without you guys.

Your very grateful student........Shredded Lettuce.


Date                               Entries  Position   Start      Scored      End          
2013-09-23 14:00(ET)  451         67        1475.23     24.75  1499.98       
2013-09-21 08:00(ET)  331      316         1487.90   -12.67  1475.23
2013-09-20 08:00(ET)  338        87         1481.70         6.2  1487.90
2013-09-16 14:00(ET)  483      267         1487.44     -5.74  1481.70
2013-09-15 14:00(ET)  454        69         1463.78     23.66  1487.44
2013-09-14 20:00(ET)  173        58         1461.57      2.21  1463.78
2013-09-07 14:00(ET)  507      218         1463.86  -   2.29  1461.57
2013-09-05 20:00(ET)  221      161         1474.12   -10.26  1463.86
2013-09-04 02:00(ET)  316      226         1484.70   -10.58  1474.12
2013-09-03 20:00(ET)  265      254         1500.00     -15.3  1484.70




UPDATED. (26th September)

See what a blog entry can do.  

Not safe yet, but a hellava lot closer than I expected.


Date                               Entries  Position  Start      Scored      End           Rank
2013-09-25 20:00(ET)  194       37         1499.98  14.66   1514.64          814


Oh, and yes...........the Inspiration is still alive!