A month ago through some heavy tilting & downswings my bankroll got crushed down to $28 or something like that. And ever since I've started to blog here about my way to the top. Proving for myself that it is possible to get towards NL50 or higher. If you put hard work, dedication into your pokerplay.  What have I learned so far?

Well I've improved sooo much the last month. As well as enjoying poker in lower stakes as improving my game immensly. I posted my general play and mistakes in earlier blogs. However one of my biggest strengths in not leaking chips by not overplaying hands and folding a lot when I think I'm behind. Also I now valuebet in spots  where I normally would check. But those thin valuebets on the river are alot of money. (When a draw came in for example and if I would check and call a bet, I now make that bet myself. Because he can call with worse & I can control the amount of that bet. If he reraises, I'm sure to be beat. And he would bet anyways meaning I'd lose the money anyhow. Only now the hands i dominate etc give me alot of value in the long run. As if I check he'll check back all worse hands.)

The beauty of it all is I actually was profitable already in poker microlevels because my knowledge of poker is far bigger than most of the players in the fields. At least I'd like to believe that. But the big losses come in tilting or not lowering your stakes.

Now a days for example at this very moment I started grinding my first hands in NL10!!! I'm still a bith scared playing there as my downswing came from there. But I can already honostly say I play NL10 alot better than I did last month. I make alot less mistakes, use notes and all that good stuff.

However important to notice here is my feelings at these tables. In NL2 & NL5 I didn't get excited (might not be the best word) on losing or winning a coinflip or getting involved. Because its standard and well it felt like not a big impact on my bankroll. However now in NL10, I made myself some quick and usefull rules to prevent from making another mistake.

- I now look at my bankroll constantly and decide a number. If I drop below that number I must immidiatly stop playing NL10 and play NL5 or NL2. I don't bother playing these stakes but it allows me to get some chips back and don't get emotional on losses.

- The bad thing is that I feel this fuzz about losing a buyin in NL10. Normally you should play stakes where you are comfortable at and don't feel a thing if you lose a buyin. (However I have to go up as my bankroll allows it. And has the same impact as NL5 had when i jumped up there. Also I tell to myself. Scared money is lost money! Play like you mean it.

So far I dropped down to NL5 once already. Yesterday after a horrible session of running in AA twice with my KK's. And some other annoying outdraws. However I did get the good feeling of sucking out on one guy aswell. Here's the hand:

I open raised late position he was in the BB. I had Q10o and the flop came  Q 10 4, 2hearts. So I flopped 2pair pretty nice, he checks and I Cbet to get value from draws and protect my hand. He check raises me pretty big. This is a hard decision, luckely I had notes on the fella. It was something like.  "Checkraise really big with top pair + draw  or monster draws." So basicly this means he would raise Sets, weaker 2pair. Q+flushdraw maybe Aflushdraw. and would also be doing that with openender + flushdraw. So basicly I had no other way than reraising him all in. As every turn card basicly would put me in a tough spot. He happened to have 44' But luckely a 10hit the river for a 4out suckout. But he only had like 80BB'. I personally don't like reraising flushdraws, because they can't find the fold button anyways with top pair good kicker. or set or 2pair.

Oh ye and I just remember why else the sessions went horrible. I flopped 2times a set in a row. Slowplay it on dry boards and get sucked out by runner runner twice. Pretty brutal, but hey I'd do it everytime again I said afterwards. So I'm glad with it. You will get sucked out upon when slowplaying but thats poker. risk reward.