72!...72!.....I WANT TO BE IN THE TOP 72.  I really like playing in tournaments.  But I am a very competitive person so it was very frustrating when I didn't score well.  Dang, dang, dang!  I wanted to be in the top 72!  Gradually, I have improved.  I played and played.  Occasionally,  it would be late night and I would fall asleep while I was playing!  Oddly, sometimes I would do better when I was in that dozing state.  One time I fell asleep and didn't wake up until the game was over.  I had placed about 2930!   Chagrinned, I remembered how I thought coming in at 3216 in my first tourney was doing so well.  OK, well, rethink that!  LOL!  Apparently, if you just don't do anything, you can come in close to that.  No wonder there are always so many people sitting out!  Daniel Negreanu says to follow your instincts and maybe when I was half asleep, I'd do that and not rethink it so much.

I'd do ok.  And then it seems like, suddenly, I started doing really well.  It was in a game where I called an all in bet 'You probably have the winning hand but I am going to bet this anyway.'   I muttered to the computer and the dogs.  My eyes went wide when I won!  I won that hand!  I had a LOT of points now.  I was in the 30,000 range.  MUCH more than the 10,000 or 15,000 that I'd get before.  I went up quite a bit more that time.  Several thousand more.  That guy was bluffing me!  Turkey.  I got you!  I placed much higher.....or should I say lower???.....somewhere in the 400's.

I more or less started expecting to be in, at least, the top 1000 players.  I did the math of what percentile I was in.  If you have 10,000 players and you score in the top 1,000 that is the top ten percent.  If you score in the 500's or lower that is the top 5 percent.  Since the Hubble tournaments have 9,000 at the most, that would be 900 and 450.   One percent of 9,000 is 90.  So to be in the top 72 you have to be better than the top ONE percent!

There is a certain point in a tourney where I feel launched.  The cards fall right.  I make the right calls.  I've been in tourneys where it seemed like the other players were stacking the deck because whatever they needed would come for them on the flop!  This time it was Meeeee!  I was in one tourney and my score was so high, I think about 70,000.  I was just breathless,  bubbling with delight and trepidation!   I looked at the scores of the other players at my table.  They were lower than mine!  I realized that i was the elephant in the room!  They were probably afraid of me!  I was the one who had such a high score I could take a little risk now and then.  I didn't feel safe.  I felt just as worried that someone would take my points as I ever was!

But I still couldn't break into that top 72!!  Grrr, Grump, Ratzinfratzin.  Sometimes I would get really, really high.  I would be ranked 4 or 8 or 12.  I'd have over 200,000 or 300,000 points!   Somehow, I would do myself  in.  If I just sat tight, I would be doing really well.  But nooooo, I wouldn't do that.  Down, down, I'd go.    One time, I had been really high but wound up at 94.  94!   Another time I was 73.  AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!  AAArrRRRRGGGHHH!

Finally, I did it!  i did it!  I DID IT!  I not only did it, but I came in at something like 42!  HA!  So THERE!  I DID IT!  YIPPEE!  Whew, what a relief!  I was so frustrated there for a while!  I don't always score in the top 72 by any means.  But I generally do fairly well.  Especially, if I am really paying attention.....not half watching TV or refereeing the dogs.  I've scored in the top 72 at least a couple more times since then.  And the pressure is off.  I don't play as often in those games anymore.

i have never actually won a tournament.  That's my next goal.  I WANT TO BE NUMBER ONE!  I WANT TO BE NUMBER ONE!!