or should it be meaning of poker, for me at least?!

it definitely play huge role in my life... i started playing accidental, honestly, three years ago... i run into "no deposit" offer while searching for some additional income online (all frauds, if some one know for some job where i don't have to give 50$ so i could earn 3500$ in a week please send pm)... needless to say i lost that money quite quickly - i was too "smart" to read articles on that website... then i decided to read a bit...  and saw that i can actually earn by playing...

bad thing was that i figured that at time when we were in very bad financial situation (and unfortunately we still are, lol)... monthly instalment for flat we took was about half of my salary, my wife couldn't find job, and so on, and so on... so i started to play some 8 to 10 hours a day and managed to pay some bills with earned money... i play much less now with much less money but, although i love to play, my basic reason for play is the same - must earn...

hardest thing for me was, and still is, bankroll management... it's all ok when i have enough money but when i need 200$ to pay bills i should of paid month ago and i have 150$ in my account and all i need is some weak FL table 1$/2$ or even 2$/4$ for complete disaster... then it doesn't help the fact i can easily see who bad players are (think i'm above average low limits, definitely well above on micro limits), no cards are good enough, almost nothing will ever help... lost my bankroll couple of times that way...

then i had to rebuild it with proper play on proper limits... btw, i have never put my own money to play poker (expect for first deposit bonuses which i withdrew as soon as i could)...

now i'm back at start... with few changes, though... last week best thing happened to me - i got baby boy... last month not so good thing happened to me - we had to rent our place, so we could pay instalments, and we moved to my parents home...

anyway i won't be playing all that much but i'll try to play better and without pressure, so we'll see how that goes...