Hey guys,

When I blog I often sit down with a clear goal in mind as to what I'm going to write about, however today I'm going to take a different approach and just write. I know what I want to talk about but I'm pretty unsure as to what the contents going to be, so if it is a bit babbly and all over the place I apologize in advance.....

Trustysam commented on a thread of mine from a week or two ago, which I still need to reply to, and mentioned that I hadn’t been active in the community over the last few weeks. In fact my contribution to the PSO community has been fading for the last few weeks and Trustysam got it spot on when she speculated that I was perhaps busy with University work.

The truth is my course is pretty intensive, the work is pretty hard and there is a lot of it. I rarely find much time to do anything as I spend 90% of my waking hours doing University work, the few hours I do have free I don’t really feel like playing as I’m often very tired and if my brains not in gear then my A game isn’t going to be around.

Poker, over time, has taught me the art of discipline; to begin with I couldn’t fold or stop playing if I felt myself tilting. However with time I learnt that I had to be patient and disciplined if I wanted to succeed. Luckily for me I managed to transfer this skill into everyday life as I realised that if I wanted to succeed at something, no matter what it was, I had to be focused and be disciplined.

Unfortunately that means that my table time is suffering as I always said to myself that I would never put poker before my University work. I managed to get to Flixx’s Live training tonight and I hope I can attend Gareth’s Thursday session as well, I hope that by attending live training and browsing the forums my game will still stay sharp and if possible improve. I’m not sure how long I’m going to be away from the table but I really don’t have the thirst to play currently so I’m not going to push it.

I think that my lack of interest in playing at the moment stems from two things. Firstly I have a ‘big week’ in terms of Uni work, lots of deadlines and lots of stress; but also from my play over the last few weeks. In my last blog I talked about having a poker schedule, however I failed to listen to my own advice as when I came back to Uni, I failed to realise that I didn’t have the same amount of time to play and didn’t adjust accordingly.

Not wanting to lower my hand count for the month I began reviewing my sessions less and less; I stopped watching videos from the library; and posted fewer hands in the HA forum. I put all my poker time into playing and I soon realised that I wasn’t getting the amount of hands I wanted in; I upped my tables (from 2 to 4 tables of zoom) and my game really suffered.

Monday morning came and I decided that I wasn’t going to play this week. I needed time to gather my thoughts and figure out a way to play and learn, as well as have time to relax and still get all my Uni work done. That brings me up to this point in time as I am yet to figure out a way to do so. I’m going to take some time this weekend and put pen to paper in a bid to figure out how much time I can actually commit to poker. I will then think about how my ‘poker time’ will be best spent.

Whatever happens I want to make sure I’m enjoying myself as well as improving my game. If this means I can only get 1000 hands in per week so be it, I know I’ll be much happier this way. I think a lot of people can get absorbed by ‘the grind’ and lose sight of why they started playing poker in the first place, we all play it because it’s fun so why not enjoy ourselves! At the end of the day very few of us are playing for any significant monetary value so why not forget about the money and have fun, I’m not saying we should go out playing like maniacs but we shouldn’t see playing as a grind.

I’m not sure how this will read or if anyone will be interested in what I have to say but if you are thanks for reading; and for now...

See ya around