BR $142.

Right now I'm devastated. Really, kind of on the verge of tears. I'm coming to the realisation that maybe I can't do this. My brain just doesn't function in the right way in those key moments, and I really don't know why that is. But whatever the reason it means I am becoming a loosing poker player.

In this hand everything was set for me to fold and get away from my cards. I had good stats and a great read on this 4 tabler in Zoom. Played many hands against him in the past and knew that he was tight and solid. So, in this hand I knew that he had either AQ or QQ. But I still called him down, all the way, like one of those loose, bad players that we are all looking to go up against that can't let go of top pair top kicker.

Well, make a note of my screen name, if you find me at the tables I'll pay you off. I am now amongst the ranks of weak, bad poker players that can't help spewing their chips to good, thinking, winning poker players.

Devastated

I'd like to think that it's because I'm tired and have been playing too much over the last few weeks. And whilst that is certainly true my gut feeling is that those aren't really the root causes of my situation. I just don't think I'm good enough. Not mentaly strong enough.

I'd even reduced my tables down to just the one so that I would have the best possible chance of making good descions in spots like this. I've got the common sense to take the right approach and then not the ability to make a good call.

Very sad

I'm sure this isn't the end of the story. But for all the great training videos on PSO I haven't found one yet that helps with this kind of poker problem. How do you train your whole poker self, brain heart and body, to make those decisions?

Any tips or books to read on the topic very much welcomed.

K.