Today was an Over-all Productive Day (Confidence Booster), I still find I'm not At the Area I'd be Happy with in my game (Hence always Challenging yourself )...Yet Today Wasn't bad over all (I finally cracked 1800. then I quickly dropped back down)...I mean for the past 3 months if you all look back on my Progress I've been steadily Climbing the ranks (At first I just ****ed around), Then I got Active (Then I got the $30)...At first site, I had thought I had accomplished a Big Thing (Free $30), but not to let an "EGO take over happen over a $30", I quickly put myself in Check, I said "WTF is $30 when ppl are winning $1500" + I also told myself "You were lucky to get so much points, lets see you repeat it again" (And I did in May), Now were in June, and I finally cracked the 1800 Points Mark (Then Quickly Dropped back down)...For the Most part it was due to Big Hands, Set over Set, and 2 pair Over 2 pair (Coolers)...My point is I'm bettering myself, and my Over all Play, and for that much I'm Happy, Content with it (Yet I'm not Content with the Over all Rank I'm at, I'm not Content with the fact that I'm only more then likely gonna win a Free $30)...I still feel like a Loser, and the thing is The Truth of the matter is I should Feel as such (When compared with the likes of players Taking a 1st and a 4th in the league in B2B months, I should'nt really be happy with my over all Plays, Nor be Content with my Over all ways, There-Fore I need to Be Better then They)....

I mean this League doesn't/Hasn't had anybody Win the Over All League money B2B Months, Nor has it have Any 2 time Winners Ever...It has had a Player take a 1st and a 4th, It has had a player take a 2nd+3rd B2B months, It's had some very Hard to beat/Hard to Top Finishes, But it hasn't have anybody win it B2B, or Finish 1st+2nd B2B months....So I guess I'm gonna be the First to try for it (I guess we all try in a Sense, Well almost all but not many ppl really try, a Select few do, The others not so Much)....

Back to the Topic at hand, I'm stuck in this Spiral of the 1740+1799 points area, and I really don't know why, I guess I can boil all my issues down to the Start of the Month, but Why? Do I play that differently from the Start to the Middle, and from the Middle to the End fo the month? Do I take more Chances in the Earlier stages when in the Start of the month thinking "I can make up lost points Tommorow the day after, so forth and so on"?....


Now I also notice that the same low ranking players are also low ranking the next month, and so forth and so on....Why? Do you not want to win? Do you not care for the money? I once recall playing with a player who stated "he didn't care", and he also stated that he made "$800 a day working".......I never called B.S on him because well lets be real, $800 a day is 24k a month" (assuming the month has 30 days)...Yet he still plays a Free Roll, and wastes his time doing so????? I'm not Rich, But I ain't stupid either, I play this League for the Money, For the Chances that this money can bring me, I play because I want to win, Yet he plays because????? Low ranking players are Low ranking every month because???? Good players are Good Because?????? It all comes down to Improvements, I don't want to be where I was Yesterday, and Tommorow I don't care to be where I was Today.....


With that, Think about it?  Are you content with where you are Today? 


Gl on the felt and in Life